How can I say no? Just a little update I suppose. A little look into the daily life of ordinary. But then again the most ordinary things can be beautiful if you look long enough. Maybe, or you could be completely wasting your time. But has curiosity gripped you enough to read on?
I'm afraid these winter days have rendered me paralyzed with an uninterrupted stasis of creative block.
I believe also an unending barrage of constant insanity from family members who derive pleasure in making a fool of me. Ones that I am suppose to love and support but damn it all if they didn't crap all over my efforts. But never-the-less will I ever stop loving them. I guess...It hurts, but I know my support is needed more than my vocal complaints of the advantage being taken of me and my significant other... whether they realize this or not. Prideful as they may be, they need us... family... what would we as imperfect humans do with out it. A perfect arrangement of support, self-sacrificing love and irritation. (ha...)
Self defense mechanism engaged. Proceed with program cut n paste.
Brave enough to know myself? Yes. Fortunately with this knowledge I know my own weaknesses well enough to keep myself from letting any potential threat get any closer than a "hello". But when it comes to family this concept is a little more tricky. Sneaky... Liars everywhere...even debilitating when the ball is in the other court and you are powerless.
Deletion in progress please wait.
A nasty habit others may dub an unorthodox way of dealing with a social uprooting between family members. But does it count if they are newly implanted in the tree of long time members? A disease choking the tree, with only one purpose. To manipulate its way around the core/center of the tree and constrict the life until it is unable to breathe. Taking over weaker branches. What can we do other than setting barriers to keep this from happening?
A stone wall.
Some stones are stronger than others. Some may give in some may stand to time indefinite and possibly suffer reprimand from weaker set stones for it. But those stones who stand tall and confident are the true guardians, pushing and pulling from both sides yet they don't give in.
Knowing one self can be a powerful weapon and shield... it can also be a curse...
You choose how to use it...